Knowledge is a burden
Too much knowledge does become overwhelming at some point.
Compassion, Unconditional Love & Forgiveness are going to free oneself of all the burden that was accumulated through out life. My guess is that enlightened yogis up in Himalayas mountain are much more capable to stay in that state indefinitely. The environment itself helps but they’ve also dedicated their whole being to that, I think so at least.
Personally, I find it difficult to maintain such a state for a long duration of time. I have constant mind and emotional swings, roaming around. I can’t help it. I am what I am. They say knowledge is a burden and it is true. Wisdom is letting go, making us lighter, freeing us from that load.
I do carry too many limiting beliefs that I need to get rid of to reach my destination and fulfill my life path, eventually.
This blog is a way for me to unload some of the knowledge, stories and beliefs I’ve accumulated and helps with the need to get rid of. That’s the plan. I don’t know if anything said here would be useful to anyone else but at least letting those thoughts out is helping myself. I believe so, it has to be, at least in some capacity.
I don’t know how I ended up exactly here-now. All the decisions that led me to this very moment. I admit I carry some regrets of the choices I’ve made… and what if…
Even though my current belief is that everyone does what their maximum capabilities allow them to do at that very moment in time.
Someone might be great, someone might be terrible – but they do try to act the best way they can, given their own position, current understanding, accumulated beliefs, gathered knowledge, etc, etc.
I’m not exempt of that rule, so in a sense that was the best attempt to navigate life thus far.
Chasing Mastery in any chosen field of passion had been my driving force so far. That’s what I love spending my energy and time on for the most part.
Of course, there are moments when I wish I was doing something else. However, being frank, one can’t spend 1000’s of hours into something they don’t actually enjoy wholeheartedly and want to master it, at the same time. I can’t see it, maybe someone else could.
If one is doing something they hate for 1000s of hours because their paycheck depends on it, they would never actually reach satisfaction of achieving mastery in said field. They would always dream of doing something else.
It’s not as easy and simple to do what one loves, otherwise so many people wouldn’t be this miserable in our society. But that’s a subject for another time.
I haven’t found the golden ticket to “#WIN”, yet.
At first it was chess, later on StarCraft and now trading, with some other honorable endeavors in between. Who knows what else is on the horizon.
I think this website is the first real thing I start with almost 0 expections of anyone reading any of it. I would love to have an audience, of course but it’s not necessary. I’m just letting out some of the ideas that are rotting in my brain for years and that’s enough for me. We’ll see where that would lead me in 3, 6, 9 months, 1 year from now.
